Dumb question

How are you two following blogs? I can't seem to find where I go to enable this.... *hides in corner*

Today, Today

I mailed my stuff off. Instantly my stress levels went down which is fantastic. I thought I'd be a wreck because the whole process is kind of out of my hands and all I can do is wait to hear back from them.
Instead I'm feeling strangely fine with it...for now. :)

I think I'm just so glad to not be stressing about it for now. I don't have to worry about anything until end of Feb. so I won't. I've done the best I can, the rest is up to them to decide if my best was good enough. But man oh man, I hope it was.

I'm taking the week and doing whatever with it. No pressure, no must do's. If I feel the urge to write, I will. If I don't, I won't and I won't beat myself up over it either.

I need to learn how to relax and accept that I don't have to be productive 24/7. A) because it's just not healthy and B) because I'm pretty sure it's directly responsible for some of the times when I can't seem to get anything down on paper. I had the same problem when I was painting freelance. If I wasn't pulling 12-14 hour days then I was a lazy slacker who was goofing off. Wow way to beat yourself up unnecessarily.

I wish I had a good videogame to play right now though. No reading. Except for the new Fables trade paperback, volume 11. Totally doesn't count. ;)

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

Heading off to the post office tomorrow to mail away my words. *crosses fingers* Then I'm gonna take a week and not think about writing unless I want to. I'll get back to the grind after that. Hopefully I can get cracking on my word count. I'm sort of revisiting some of my world building though. I think it's percolating in the back of my head. Feels like it. Need to make some decisions on supernatural abilities. I was going to wait till the first draft was done to nail stuff down... But I'm not sure I can. I think it would be better to get a firmer handle on it before I try to go any farther. I confess, I hadn't exactly mapped out all of my character's abilities yet. Bad me.

Finally got a chance to catch up on some people's stories. Glad to see people still plugging away. Lyra you are a freaking word machine! Soleil, post something! ;) heh, yea, cause I have room to talk. ;P Teehee.

I wish I had something new to post. I think barring stuff from the end, I'm out of snippets.

Also, I think it might be time to once again consolidate scenes and such into my 3 main files for this and reorganize scenes into better order. And go over my outline again because I'm sure I've made changes and come up with tweaks since the last time I checked it. Reoganizing is a huge pain, but I usually feel a little better after I do. Man I miss my freaking Writer's Cafe program. *cries* I want my puter back!!!

Apparently everything I touch breaks.

So both computers are down and need to be reformatted and OSs reinstalled. The internet finally got fixed on their end, and the comps died, the victim of viruses so new no one has names for them yet, failed hard drives and god only knows what else. Then my only phone decided to eat my money and not give me my service. 3 days and tech support is still "looking into it." I'm pretty sure other things have happened, but I can't remember them atm.

Writing wise I am going over, and over, and over an excerpt I'm using as a submission for the writers workshop I would probably wet myself to get into. I am so sick of looking at it and revising it that I hate it now and think it's crap. It's not, but you know when you've looked at something too long and too many times, yea I'm there right now. The other night I made a bunch of changes on the hard copy, thank god I did because I went to type them in and only about half of them are going in. The rest are wtf was I thinking.

I'm stressed and tired, but still writing or revising almost everyday, even if it's just a little bit and that makes me happy. I also wrote some random silly snippet of something involving a guy, an iguanadog and a quasi-sentient bike. They got zapped with magical lightning by a drunk Fate who was having a temper tantrum about losing a bet to a lecherous Father Time. So yea, not to be taken seriously. :)

Defintely hoping your 2009 is going better than mine. I'm borrowing a friends comp for this so expect the dryspell of internet posts to continue a while longer.

I have been without internet for 10 days now. I will continue to be without internet for I do not know how long. I am displeased.

I was going to leave you with a snippet of something, but I left it at home. Where there is no internet. None at all.

Some people can live just fine without internet. I am not one of those people.